question: sex?

Um,
why are there so many bisexual women in my life?
Marina Abromovic comes to mind.
Is the best part of sex the sex? Is it the telling about it, afterward?
Is it the being with the person? Can I have wonderful sex that means nothing?
What is it culturally that I know about sex?
How is it related to how much water I drink, and how I eat, and how I hold my body, and how I trust myself?
And whether being out at night is a thing, or the bluegrass, or driving in a car...

Art and the quest for the TRUE SELF.

Things that make me feel like a person: doing yoga.

And how Rudolf Steiner talks about our place in the world?

How a lot of art is about Expressing Yourself, when I was born out of the world,
things that make me happy dont make everyone happy

the art of BECOMING.
of using tools:
nature
schools
people
materials
time
money

to find out what it is you should do and then do it.

To find out what it is you are afraid of and become it.

It's like, there's nowhere to go, but then there's also a direction.

You know?

There are things that I like to do more than other things.
I'm thinking about moving schools, because I want art school to be more of a thing about solving how I feel about life.

I'm thinking about time a lot. About this imaginary man pressing down on me.
I'm thinking abou writing and gardening, too. About weaving and quilting.

About how I felt reading the beginning of David Sedaris's new book.

About how I felt walking into the art galleries downtown yesterday.

About how talking to people isn't what I think it is?

Reading:
Teaching As A Subversive Activity

Looking:
At the Bennington College's MFA Program in Writing

Blogs:
Jason Sturgill
OKBB
It's Nice That

today's questions

Joseph Campbell.
Krishnamurti.
Yaddo/Iowa Writer's Workshop.
Ann Patchett.
Alaska.

Using art to get yourself out of whatever box you find yourself in.
Non-violent communication.
Life as a whole.
Tinhouse. Poetry Review.

Having schedules.
FUTILITY OF ALL ACTION IS MAYBE FREEDOM!! [love]

Selfishness of artists/domesticity

Making goals vs. NOT BEING EFFICIENT.

That's my whole brain today, pumpkin. Have fun!

My little family as my gifts. My littleness. Little Robin.
Oh, and the importance of research and reading and stuff. Lah dee dah dee dah.

The importance of dreams. Wooden boats.

Questions of the day:

Why am I so impatient?

Should I stay in art school?

What makes me excited?

Well, my teeth hurt.

and I don't know what I want to do.

And I'm not looking at the keyboard as I'm tayping this.

And I want everybody in the world to know my name.

And I'm all ideas in my head while the wind is blowing

and I hear the recycling truck dump cans into their truck

And I'm not looking back

and I'm frustrated with uncreative writing

and I want someone to hug me

and my knees hurt

and I'm imagining not putting together my prints for the show

and I want to live in a tiny village or something

or have a truck

and I burped and imagined mara heard it in her bed and was annoyed with how frustrating I am

and I'm picking at my skin